I work too much. Seriously. I never mentioned that I test software 40 hours per week, I also work at a Special Occasions dress shop about 20-25 hours a week, and in my spare "time off", I sew for cash. This leaves about enough time to sleep, but definitely not enough time to keep our place clean & tidy, food shopping, relaxation, regular self-maintenance and quality alone time with BF. I have been using my lunch hours to squeeze in the chiropractor, or doctor or dentist or errand running...I also work through my lunch hour most of the time so that I can dilly-dally a bit or to catch a few extra Z's in the morning before having to start my work all day into the night routine.....
I honestly think it is really starting to affect me. Sometimes I feel like I've bitten off more than I can chew, but when I am doing it, it feels good and I am happy to be doing it.
One of my "Sew for Cash" clients recently asked me "Why do you work so much" and without hesitation I said "Because all of these opportunities keep presenting themselves to me, and with the way things are in the world right now, I feel obligated to accept the work" I truly do enjoy each and everyone of my jobs, but I feel like they are getting in the way of life. I can't just go to work whenever I feel like it, I am scheduled to be there and I always feel guilty to take time off...even when I really am sick.
I need more Christa Time aka Leisure Time. We were meant to work hard but also have at least 1 day per week to rest, right? At this point I get 1 day off per month.....I truly am Crazy aren't I?
And no, I haven't been saving. Well, I do have more cash in the bank than when I was just working 1 job, but I still feel like being that I work all the time, I really don't have the time to spend it. But somehow I do spend it...well some of it.
I need to get things in better order. Something has to give. I think it may wind up that I work the dress shop during the busy seasons (Homecoming Season and Prom Season) about 6 months out of the year....it's hard to comprehend giving up something I enjoy doing....but it is becoming too much.
On 3 occasions, I've found myself having mini (and I mean TINY) meltdowns ,of course with no one else around . That's not good for the soul. I don't feel stressed, but I certainly do feel a bit overwhelmed.
I need to do right by me. I deserve more time to work on me instead of working on something else for someone else. I mean, I REALLY need to get into the gym...at least 3 times a week....but WHEN? I have tried so hard to be a morning person and get up and start my day with a workout and yes I love those days when I can push myself but another part of me hates me for doing it...HAH!
I need to regroup.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Update: New Art For the Main Living Area
I knew I shouldn't have walked into Z. Gallerie...sigh...I digress...So I saw some framed wall art that I knew I'd be thinking about for the next 5 years if I didn't purchase it and it was affordable in the sense that I probably wouldn't find it for any cheaper all dinged up at Home Goods and the like....so I bought it....for $106 after tax....and I LOVE IT!! And BF likes it too, so it's all good in the hood!
It's a Vespa! Here's the link to purchase your very own if you feel that you too need this Vespa hanging somewhere in your dwelling. You're welcome!
As you can see, I moved an end table and lamp in there (originally from the bedroom), The living room needed an end table and that corner certainly needed some light, oh and I moved the Himilayan Salt Lamp that I picked up on Target's website onto that table as well. I can't seem to find a link to the actual size that I purchased for $29.99, but if you're interested I've seen them in Whole Foods in the Health and Beauty section for around the same price. It gives off such a nice amber glow, like the glow from a candle but without the flickering.
The place is really coming together nicely. I feel it's finally starting to say "A happy, fun-loving artist on a budget lives here"
Too bad it doesn't say "A happy, fun-loving artist and her boyfriend who are on a budget live here" I haven't found the right pieces to make that statement yet.
But I love him. and he loves me. and he is happy with the new framed wall art. :) and that makes me happy!
The bedroom is starting to come together, but right now it's no where near ready to be photographed. So here is a picture of the kitchen after being cleaned and ready for it's photo shoot. Sorry for the darkness, it was night time.
Life is Good
It's a Vespa! Here's the link to purchase your very own if you feel that you too need this Vespa hanging somewhere in your dwelling. You're welcome!
As you can see, I moved an end table and lamp in there (originally from the bedroom), The living room needed an end table and that corner certainly needed some light, oh and I moved the Himilayan Salt Lamp that I picked up on Target's website onto that table as well. I can't seem to find a link to the actual size that I purchased for $29.99, but if you're interested I've seen them in Whole Foods in the Health and Beauty section for around the same price. It gives off such a nice amber glow, like the glow from a candle but without the flickering.
The place is really coming together nicely. I feel it's finally starting to say "A happy, fun-loving artist on a budget lives here"
But I love him. and he loves me. and he is happy with the new framed wall art. :) and that makes me happy!
The bedroom is starting to come together, but right now it's no where near ready to be photographed. So here is a picture of the kitchen after being cleaned and ready for it's photo shoot. Sorry for the darkness, it was night time.
Life is Good
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